Let's. Get. Dangerous.

Went to get my books for school, today. (Only three! Woo!) Popped into the band room to see how they've been doing and listened to an official recording of a song they're gonna be playing. Then I listened to them play the song.

I have never been so relieved and so devastated at the same time in my life. Relieved that I got out of band when I did, and devastated because of what the director said when they finally finished. "You guys may not believe me, but that was a 100% better than before!"

::sob:: They suck. They suck so bad.

Saw Pixar's Up. It was extremely adorable, even though it had some terribly sad and serious moments in it. D: But overall, I enjoyed it very much. ♥

Went driving some. (I forgot to mention that I got my permit the 15th of May. XD ) It's veeeery strange. And sometimes Mom kept her right leg tense in the corner, as if she was pressing the break. XDD

It's the second day of summer and I'm already bored. I want summer school to start. D:

...is Spring Break. Therefore, tomorrow the rents and I shall be heading out to the beach. I will not be back until Friday, next week (aka, the 21st).

Hopefully by then I will have more than simply two-halves of random fics done, and more than just bits and pieces of a Jeb application on my hard drive.

Whee! Extra sleep, here I come! :D

First reason that I am really, really not happy with myself right now:

I had the perfect opportunity to buy a certain coat today, one that I need for Halloween(yes, I am planning really far ahead. I want to do this, dangit!), only I didn't buy it. Mostly because I didn't have enough money right then and really didn't want to ask my dad to buy it for me(because he had just paid $136 for my new sunglasses; there was no way that I was gonna ask him for something that I probably will only wear once, no matter how much I want it).

It was the perfect coat for it too. It had the right color, and it even had that flap-thing in the back. It did have an icky inside, but thankfully I had the possibility to take that out(zippers! :D). I just might have to go back sometime this week and get it.

Why do I want it this badly? >.> I am going to be Cain for Halloween. ♥ And I will have my Glitch, so it's gonna be really, really fun.

Second reason that I am really, really not happy with myself right now:

I am avoiding writing that fic for English. It was due today, yes, but I was so unhappy with the ending that I asked if I could turn what I had this morning in then, and then rewrite the end and turn it in tomorrow. I was that unhappy with the ending. T__T

Only now I'm avoiding it like the plague so I don't end up deleting the whole damn thing in frustration. x_x

Third reason that I am really, really not happy with myself right now:

I am also avoiding my duties as a group member. We are doing a group newspaper for history, and I am not currently wanting to do anything for it right now.

Argh.


ETA: And let's just say, my self-confidence has gone down the tubes in the last few days. T____T

So, I've been writing a Tin Man fic for English class, because it was a creative assignment and yeah, why not, right? The rough draft was due today, and I had been worried that my teacher wouldn't know what it was from/hadn't seen Tin Man.

Turns out, she has. And altho she couldn't finish reading it cause she was pressed for time (which was good, because I haven't finished it yet), she said she's really looking forward to reading it.

♥ YAY!

Because I still can't decide.

PROS

Extra elective.

Extra time after school during Marching Season; also, extra time to help out Dad with Football Season to ensure that he'll continue working until I graduate.

More time to work on homework; a good thing, considering the two AP classes I will be taking.

Less stress over practicing and making sure to learn movements/songs.

No sore muscles.

NO BAND DRAMA/DEALING WITH BAND DRAMA. (\o/)

No dealing with Assholes. Surprisingly, they are Very Common in band.

No need to take summer school.

No dealing with yet another new Band Director halfway through the first semester of next year. (Our current one says that he will be staying, but I'm not trusting that just yet.)

CONS

Extra elective will most likely be used up by a Language, and not by something fun like Advanced Drama.

Ability to play the clarinet will disappear, slowly but surely.

No Fun Times on the buses.

No Disneyland trip. Woe.

No Clarinet Sectional Story Time. More woe.

No chance to play the Alto Saxophone during Concert Season(not like I had one anyway ::is still annoyed about that::).

The COMPLETE SHAME which will come from everyone else in band.

No more general fun with band friends.

NO BAND CAMP. (which is more con than pro so it goes here)


And so much more for both that I just can't decide what I want.

But at the moment, I'm more leaning towards not taking it, which is making me sad.

>:

Okay, I think I've decided on something.

Next year, I won't take band. But if I don't like that and miss it too much, I'll take it up again Senior year. I will have missed a year, yes, but I want to see my own reaction to not taking band for a year, because I'm also still not sure what I want to do after high school.

... ::nods:: Yes, I think I'll do that.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Okayso. The first quarter of school is over and done with. We got let out 2 hours early as a Minimum Day so the teachers could then work on getting in grades.

I went to all of my teachers(except the ones that I already knew my grade in), and found out my grades.

I have all straight As for the first time in my life.

Of course I have to keep it up to when grades will actually count for anything(which will be at the end of the semester), but I am happyhappy!

Gleeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Btw, I am both disgusted and relieved that that narrative essay was so damn easy to do. Disgusted because I could have easily just done it on the weekend, and relived because, dude! It's due tomorrow! :O

Note for self: I've got to remember to never try explaining the things that are crap in my life to my mom. Because it does not help, and makes me frustrated as hell.

Alright. Since I am at the moment on a different comp and am using a different connection, I will just go ahead and update before I get home and find out if I'll be on later tonight or not. 


So, yes. I have a new bestest friend IRL. 

YAY!

One. more. day.

::collapses::